Turn to you

Right now.. I feel so helpless and so scared... There's a mixture of feelings in my heart which is making me feeling very uncomfortable... I dont feel like want to talk to anyone right now.. It is not that i dont want to talk to.. but there's no appropriate place for me to turn to... I definitely dont want to bother my friends and let them hear me whine... Hence I had to AFK-ed Huntx and Turtle... I think I might cry because of dunno-what reason wtf -.- .... Everyone is busy with the UPU and USM thingy... Cheng has his dad to help him to talk about the-very-duno-wth-I-worry-about problems while filling the forms and deciding what courses to take... I know sitting here blogging wont help me with anything.. Yet i need someone to talk to... Thus my blog is the best place I could find to 'turn' to...Im self-conscious that Im a big girl now... And yeah my parents say they will support me no matter what decision I make.. And I already know what I want in my life.. But somehow I still worry and scare ( very very scare ) at the same time... I used to be an insomniac and it was very torturing.. I think I didnt manage myself wisely in 2008/09.. Everything was so sucks and I want to get out of my former school as soon as I can... The irritating stalker as well as the school itself.. On the bright side, I like my teachers and what I learn to the max =) But still, final is always haunting me.. Just cant help myself not to think about it everytime I fill the application form.. Im running out of words... I think I better go drug myself with some entertainment... =.=""

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ps : special kudos to Turtle n Victor n Huntx who can bare with my dunno-what mood streak. I know Im hard to be understand. xD