my dream

when i was a younger kiddo, i have plenty of dreams that i want to accomplish one day. one of these childhood dreams is having my own farm. haha. im gonna grow a lot of sunflowers like the picture above.. rear some milk cows and chickens.. maybe a horse and two goats... if im lucky enough, maybe i'll have a loving hubby by my side at that time, so that we can pick the prettiest flowers together and delivered them to the floral shops.. then use our farm cows' milk to make ice - creams, yogurt and cheese.... teehehehe.. a lil gal's dream.. not bad huh? XD

Touch My Hand

don't know since when, go to kb with our HappyKnights clan's members on every friday is like one of the routine for me. lolx. but yesterday, instead of going out with them, i chose to stay at home.. cos i were sick o(╯□╰)o blame it on the hot weather la haha. every foods i ate, every drinks i had, all tasteless de. lolx. even the cake my mami just bought also taste like biasa punya kuih muih -3- but a sick me didnt looked like a sick me lolx. i went to my cousin house.. play play play.. then came back wk-ing.. play play play until 2,3am with elune hahahahaha

fruits season is coming soon, i can smell 榴莲花 in the air ^__^ what is ur favourite fruit ?

i know there are some readers who always keep up with my blog despite of the boringness and lack of update ^__^ thanks guys. pls leave a trail so that i know whats ya think about my blog/post ok ?

ps : next friday also cannot go out.. my cousin kahwin xD

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holiday is great !! really great cos i have so much more time for myself, not being with the crowd. just me n my darlin computer ~ my very own time. =]

another great part of having such a long holiday is that i've a lot of time to ponder about my life. not just think for 10 minutes when certain problems arise n come out with a solution that i thought was the best.

turtle said im like a kid cos i get happy easily. lolx. im *secret* years old this year, but age is just a number lah. so being happy has nothing to do with age keke.

someone said i'd changed a lot. he said i used to be a happy-go-lucky girl who was not worry for anything cos i always has a back up plan. lol ? i was?? @@ hmm... f6 life really changed me a lot. i always blame other ppl for making my life so miserable, yet actually it was myself. i was too absurd to let all the problems strangle myself n thus almost destroyed the last ticket to university. lolx. but nvm lah, the lessons are learned n im ok with it. XD

about ppl that had left ~ umm... keep on mourning wont bring someone back to ur life again. so why should i depressed myself? lolx. when u love someone, let them go, if they come back then it was meant to be. haha. 简简单单地爱你 ~

人，总是喜欢然自己活在回忆里；为何不让自己走出回忆，到未来去看看，看未来的世界是多么的美好.. 多么的美丽.. 多么的令人感到期待。^__^

Mark Twain ~ (^.^)b

Far Away

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know
I wanted, I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed, I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along and I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing 'cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing 'cause I'm not leaving you anymore

ps : distance is not a reason to separate u and me. though we are far away from each other, but i din't worry nor doubt u, cos i believe in u. u set my mind at ease, relieved and for the first time, i feel that i don't have to worry for anything cos i'll always have u. thanks. ^__^

- i miss yew -

习惯了寂寞

身边有很多知心朋友

但有时还会觉得很寂寞

常常都在想
想想自己的现在，过去和未来
想了很多很多没用的东西

伤心的曲子一直都是孤单最好的解药
一个人静静地欣赏它 ~ 那种感觉好好 ~~

孤独的心啊 在笔下融化
转身的刹那 润湿了脸颊

pc fair

i worked as a promoter for about 4 days at pikom pc fair 2010 lolx. this is the very first time i actually went to a pc fair wakaka. my boss namanya jacky, dia datang dari kl bersama seorang staffnya yang bernama ah long. hehehe i talked a lot, most of the time malay, so now my voice is kinda weird weird one, or should i say kinda sexy ~~ kekeke. sekarang sudah takda kerja, jadi bolehlah saya rilek depan komputer sambil makan dark choc. lolx. i also dunno lah why i wrote in malay, maybe bcos i talked TOO MUCH malay in this 3 days. "cik cik yang ni bagus nih" "uncle uncle bag nih sangat high kualiti lagi harganya berpatutan" repeat the same lines again and again, just like 2pm's again and again played by one of the booths. siapa ye yang mainkan lagu tu? dia mainkan lagu jay chou juga tau XD

my bro said he wants to belanja me makan teehehe. actually i am a very very blessed lucky girl. i don't know why, but many ppl love me despite of the fact that im not a good obedient girl.. u know... like how a good girl should behave? stay at home, be a filial daughter, belajar rajin rajin, don't mix around with the boys too much etc. in add, im probably 1 of the laziest human alive =.= the laziest girl among my girl friends. but i don't really care la what other ppl said, they say lah what they want, im clean and i didnt do anything illegal. wtf u are to judge me. u dont know me so dont act like u know me. blekkkkkkkkkkzzzzzzzz =.= but i care about what my parents and loved ones feel so in the fucking end i have no other choice but to care sikit sikit.

退后

天空灰得像哭过
离开你以后
并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
嗅出我们的距离
一幕锥心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息
抽屉泛黄的日记
榨干了回忆
那笑容是夏季
你我的过去
被顺时针地忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
粗心的眼泪是多余
我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待续

wonder babies

found a r***** in wonderking @@
btw haven't see 老人L new character yet....

maybe he'll look like legolas? XD

特别朋友

两个可能彼此相爱、喜欢的人，
但是，又不属于友情、爱情、亲情中的任何一种...

也许彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线..
不过即使没在一起，彼此仍能找到塌实的感觉....
仍然会保持不隶属任何一种感情的关系....

但是彼此心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心...

因为有了彼此，心里总是被幸福塞得满满的..

即使不能彼此名正言顺的牵着手逛街，还是可以做无所不谈的朋友..

对方遇到困难时，会尽全力伸出援助之手，不会计较谁又欠了谁...
对方生病了，会缴尽脑汁找药方，恨不得变成护士，陪伴在身旁..

每个人这辈子，心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为....

很多的感情，都败在了现实的面前...

人生不过百年....
能牵手的时候，请别只是肩并肩，
能拥抱的时候，请别只是手牵手，
能在一起的时候，请别轻易分开，
能成为红颜知己，请别刻意离开！

Do You Call This A Friend

well, she is my friend too. she is not that bad lah actually. if you response to her differently when she is 'taking advantage' on you, maybe she will change? one way or another, tell her what you dont like? you said im different, yes i am, i told her directly what i dislike. maybe you should try too? find a right time and talk things to her? don't tell me she wouldn't want to listen to u.... u want i show u an example? i can do that with ease and no pride will be lost nor any cat fight is involved. trust me. what is the point of trying to bear with her when she is with you but then complaint about her at her back? useless..