Friday, April 17, 2015
Wolf Child
I actually didn't realize this until lately my colleagues 'interrogated' about my life over here. They were quite surprised when they know I am all by myself most of the time, well, I am surprised too. I thought I can't live through this cold world alone. I thought I could die without having someone else around me.
Being alone is good. I have time for myself. I don't have to put up with other people shits. Most importantly, I get to keep my true self intact. Which mean I doesn't have to try to be all nice, even when I don't want to, just to please people. That is very tiring, u know? And I don't like it when I am not myself. It is disgusting.
Hmmm.. not sure what else to write, just want to write down what I feel in this moment.
To darlin me : stay strong and whatever happen, be true to yourself. No matter what other people say, even when they misunderstand or anything, don't let them change what you really are. Don't hurt others, and most importantly, love yourself first. Remember that I love you ;]
Friday, October 10, 2014
Cake Recipes
Lemon Sour Cream Cake
125g butter, softened 1 cup plain flour
2 teaspoons grated lemon rind 1 teaspoon baking powder
1 cup sugar ½ cup sour cream
3 eggs Icing sugar
Chocolate Cake
175g butter, softened 2 cups plain flour
1 teaspoon vanilla essence 2 teaspoons baking powder
1¾ cups sugar 1 cup milk
3 eggs Chocolate icing or icing sugar
½ cup cocoa
>> I've never got the chance to tried the recipes shared below yet.. But they seem good too so I think I would share lah.
Rich Chocolate Cake
(A very moist and rich flourless cake. Suitable for dessert.)
175g unsalted butter, softened 150g cooking chocolate, melted
¾ cup brown sugar 2 x 70g packets ground almonds
1 teaspoon vanilla essence Icing sugar
6 eggs, separated Whipped cream
Cream butter, sugar and vanilla until light and fluffy. Beat in egg yolks. Fold in melted chocolate and almonds. In another bowl beat egg whites until soft peaks form. Gradually fold whites into chocolate mixture. Pour into a greased and lined 20cm spring-form tin. Bake at 190°C for 20 minutes then reduce heat to 150°C for a further 35 minutes or until firm. Allow cake to cool in tin. Release cake and transfer to a serving plate. Dust with icing sugar and serve warm or cold with cream.
Chocolate Liqueur Cake
Omit vanilla essence and replace with 2 teaspoons chocolate, coffee or orange liqueur.
Happy baking !! And don't forget to share your baking experience with me ! If you don't mind ! :)
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
I.Have.To.Be.Strong.And.Leave.
Hopefully I can adapt to the new environment..
Hopefully my body is not so weak already..
Hopefully I rajin work dont lazy already..
Hopefully I didn't get severe homesick lah...
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
【看不出来的星座痴心情人】
第一名 上升或太阳在狮子座
狮子座的人,不容易让人看见他(她)们受伤,在感情中就算分 手,无论自己是不是被辜负的一方,因为平日的形象就太坚强了,所 以连自己受伤的时候,也都在安慰别人说自己没事,深怕亲友担心, 带着无所谓的面具,默默承受一切,就因为狮子的面具太坚强了,让 大家一直误以为他(她)们对情伤无所谓,总是可以很快好起来。
事实上,狮子座的人对爱情非常有责任感,一旦爱定某个人,会 非常认真付出,把对方当成自己目前的家人,甚至未来的家人一样照 顾,而且,狮子座的人一旦决定的方向,不容易改变,当他(她)们 决定和某个人交往,通常不会是变心的一方,而且,狮子座有责任感 的心态,通常把情路上所经历的所有困难痛苦都当成必然的付出,只 是因为他(她)们不太会抱怨感情中所承受的一切,因此,很难想象 的是,狮子座通常是被分手的一方,而且被分手的时候,脸上还看不 出痛苦的表情,反而会祝福离去的情人,表面上安慰大家自己没事, 可以承受的起这种情伤,但每每想起自己真诚深刻的付出,会在夜半 里暗自落泪呢。。。
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
What Am I
- TheRealMe -I am a paradox. I want to be happy, but I think of things that make me sad. I am lazy, yet I am ambitious. I don't like myself but I also love who I am. I say I don't care, but I really do. I crave attention, but reject it when it comes in my way. I am a conflicted contradiction. If I can't figure myself out, there is no way anyone else has.When I say 'I miss you', I really do mean it. I am not the type of person to only say those three words when I need something from you. If I tell you that I miss you, it means that you mean a lot to me. Not only does it mean that you have positively impacted my life, but also means that I want you to stay. I know people come and go, that's life, but I am going to be honest, I want you to stay in my life.What my problem is? I get attached fast. And once I get attached to someone I do everything to please them and make them happy. It is never about what I want; it is always everybody's needs before my own. I give out too many chances to people, who quite frankly, do no deserve them. They take advantage of me, and I push them away. And even if they screw me over, I will still be there for them, because that is me, that who I am. Once I get attached to someone, they capture my heart and they always have a place there. That is so hard for me to just let it go.I don't think people love me. They love versions of me I have spun for them, versions of me they have construed in their minds.What I don't get about life? I don't get it how someone can erase you from their memory. How someone can just delete your existence. How someone can just walk pass by and you pretend nothing happened between you two. How someone can completely forget about all the memories you have made together. How someone can get over you so quickly. How someone can just lie to your face. How someone can change your entire mood in a second. How someone can walk away like you meant nothing.What am I afraid of? I am afraid of being happy because in just a few seconds I can lose everything and everyone in my life. Being happy is just a feeling that you have in a certain moment but what happens to the happiness when it goes away? What happens inside me? Yesterday I had everything, today I have nothing. I feel completely lost.
Sunday, August 25, 2013
狮子座
总有一种被忽视的感觉;
付出的远超过得到的;
很固执,不懂得放弃;
一点点事就胡思乱想;
在别人面前笑得很开心,一个人的时候却很落寞;
陌生人前很安静,朋友面前胡闹;
不喜欢一个人逛街;
心情不好时喜欢听忧伤的歌;经常发呆,
中枪的狮子请举爪!
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Frenship & Love
:(..
its very hard to juggle both of them at the same time..
i dont wanna lose both..
what should i do... :'(
Friday, March 22, 2013
Strong Heart.... ?
last sem le but feel so scare...
hopeless.. i dont know if i am able to walk through this path or not..
friends..
ppl&thgs change really fast..
suddenly i have a boyfriend..
suddenly some close friends become strangers ady..
trying hard to accept this fact but failed..
i just hate being weak..
on the other hand..
i just realise how hurt words can be..
especially from someone u very care of...
有些話,你不經意的說出口,我卻很認真的難過...
Friday, December 28, 2012
一个人,两个人,三个人
就只是自己,
不必顾虑得太多,
自己过得开心就好。
两个人,
从来没有向你表示过,
但是做任何事都会先想到你,
开心的伤心的都会双倍感受到。
三个人,
你我她不同人,
既然是睡同一张床的,
从来就不跟任何人计较,
但是为什么有时喜欢闹脾气?
# 表达能力越来越差。。 很讨厌被误会的感觉 :(
Monday, July 30, 2012
Broken Mirror
So much freaking resemblances that I used to think that at some point we would know and understand each other's thoughts. But i was wrong about you.... actually, I don't know what is really on your mind. I don't know why you always think that I'd betrayed you, when you are one of those friends that I've really treasured and put hearty friendship into. I might act like I don't care, or I might not loved you like how you've wanted to. And I've always have problem expressing my feelings, to you, no exception. But one thing I'm very sure of, when I'm really really mad, sad or disappointing to someone I really care, I won't talk to them for awhile. I'm well aware words that are spoken can't be taken back. Plus my shitty temper, I was scared that I would say things that I'll regret when my EQ is at its lowest pit. So I thought bringing cold shoulder into the zone would be the best solution, hoping that time will sweep every bad things away and then we will be okay again.
But you came and made me realized alot of things. I see myself in you. I learnt about myself. I was so happy with your presence, until I don't know how and when things started to go wrong. It hurts me so much. Unlike you, I don't like to show my weakness to the others. This is one of the leo ppl's traits i guess ha. Trying to hide the pain under the poker face actually hurt so much more wtf. And hell, this is the only thing that I didn't being honest with you.
I sincerely hope that the stupid vicious cycle drop at the very last time we stopped it. It is torturing. Let be really honest with each other. There is no other ppl who know ourselves more that we are. I was weak and careless, to let certain ppl got into my clear judgments. FYI, I'd became such soft hearted and weak after I came here ha. So much contradictions to all the things you had said about me.
I also isn't fake when I've no choice but to be good to someone I dislike, you know who I meant here don't you ;)
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
The Story Of Us
Since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.
This is looking like a contest,
Of who can act like they care less,
But I liked it better when you were on my side.
The battle's in your hands now,
But I would lay my armor down
If you said you'd rather love than fight.
So many things that you wished I knew,
But the story of us might be ending soon.
Friday, April 13, 2012
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
I'm Not Ok
Sunday, February 12, 2012
獅子座

其實獅子很包容,甚至愛你的時候連自己的性格都願意為對
這只有愛過獅子的才知道。
你沒有看到過獅子的眼淚,是因為他從來不會在人面前哭
除非你真的把他們的真心奪走了。
獅子座真正喜歡的東西,是會執著的讓人害怕
根本就不知道放棄是什麼,除非是他們自己發現這東西不值
獅子的自尊很重要,對於他們最重要的恐怕就是這個了
他們懂得原諒,無數次的去試著原諒
就算別人讓自己千瘡百孔,他們也會無條件的有自己的寬容
因為他們的自尊不允許自己放棄這個世界。
獅子從不哭,從不認輸,從不屈服
太過忍耐,太過高傲、累死還在維護他那要命的自尊
喜歡一個人安靜的聆聽單曲迴圈一首很傷感的音樂
喜歡自由,有著最完美主義傾向
喜歡把事情做的極端,要嘛最好,要嘛最差
但是不管怎樣他從來不會認輸
他的思維從不受限制
喜歡天馬行空的想像,個性不容別人踐踏。
【獅子座的原則】
1、能不罵人,就不罵!一旦罵,就往死裡罵
2、騙我罵我可以,但不要被我知道
3、我可以容忍,但別超過我的底線
4、我可以裝傻,但別以為我真傻
5、不喜歡就是不喜歡,說啥也沒用
6、任何的真話,我都能接受
7、對我真心的,我會雙倍回報
8、對於裝熟者,不留臉面
Friday, February 10, 2012
Sunday, February 5, 2012
DrunkenConfession
To tell the truth, despite of my carefree attitude and all-day-happy face, everyday i m living in fear. I know i m stupid to let everyone knows what i really am by writing things honestly here, but my friend Eddie influenced me one. Reading his blog made me wonder 'walao why ones could expressed every detailed feelings and thoughts he has so publicly'. But then, maybe this is the difference between boy and girl bah.
... i m not sure what should i write le..
so here i would like to share my fav song 'InTheEnd - LinkinPark'
This is not the end This is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady Something empty's within 'em
We say Yeah! With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
That's invisible there, 'Cause we're living at the mercy of The pain and the fear
Until we dead it Forget it Let it all disappear
Waiting for the end to come Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned It's out of my control....
Flying at the speed of light Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid It's hard to let you go...
(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on, I know how it feels to lie
All I wanna do Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got
Sitting in an empty room Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last, I wish it wasn't so...
What was left when that fire was gone?
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And i don't even know what kind of things I've said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?
The hardest part of ending Is starting again!!
All I wanna do Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what i haven't got...
I always like how LP talk about life and reality through their songs.
So true and true =]
Though sometimes i talk alot but til now i still dont know how to expressed my real feelings.. Always want to act tough and all that and sometimes i m really tired.. I wonder when can i really really clear out everything that is kept in me, except the temper, aih really cant help with it.
And love, i cant even love myself, how can i love another? And you come back to me again after year, asking for my love once again, and i once again have to deny it.. sincerely i m really sorry..
Sunday, August 14, 2011
i like you ~~~ \(^——^)/
走到心里了 啦啦啦啦啦 ~
你从哪里来 为何你是那么显眼 ~
你的眼神 我真的很喜欢 ~
虽然想到你身边 但是没有勇气 。 。
心在颤抖 我不知所措 不知道该怎么办 快疯了 ~
不想错过你 想一步一步走近你 为了不让你离开我身边 ~
你即使推开我 我也会重新来过 一定会喜欢我 ~
我们从见面开始就傻傻地站着 ~
我真的很喜欢你 ~
时间一到 一定会回到我身边 ~
一定会等着你 我不想放开你 ~
Thursday, April 28, 2011
^^
看到你伤心,就以自己的笑容来取悦你
看到你忙碌,很想帮帮你减减你的负担
看到你深思,就很想知道你在想些啥呢
开心的时候陪你去诳街吃蛋糕喝星巴克 :)
不开心的时候呆在房间里听歌或睡觉 T.T
我试着让生活变得清谈
对幸福或寂寞顺其自然
偶尔傻傻孤单
偶尔傻傻浪漫
不怕大悲大喜那么难负担 ^^
不开心睡一觉,就让它过去吧。伤心还好,伤胃就不好了。—— 麦兜
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
A nightmare of nothing
as some of you acknowledged, me and my friends went to penang for 2 nights. it wasn't really anticipating at first where they had canceled it somewhere near the date. the cancellation was expected ( the planning process was kinda 'weak' ) but i had butt myself in last minutely and made it happened. voila ! for maymay and piggy i will !
unfortunately... may didn't go...
her boyf brought her camera along so that he can take beautiful photos of the butterflies ( butterfly farm ) and foods for her. he bought some presents for her too. one bag full with soft toys, i wonder if may wants to share with me some hahaha.
i tried to attach some photos with this post so that u guys can have a better view of what we'd at penang ( excusing myself from writing so many words also haha ) but failed cos internet speed SUPER SLOW la !! btw, i think those photos are very wuliao cos it is taken by a wuliao me who does everything in my wuliao way. lagipun, we didnt do anything special there. we ate char kuey tiaw, penang laksa, cendol, rojak, sakae etc. we watched the green ogre, a nightmare on elm street and prince dastan. we spent most of the time walking and waiting. waiting for the shops to open, waiting for buses, waiting for the movie. sound very wuliao right? sebenarnya its fun ! very fun to be with yanyan and a fon. bring back the school days memories. ^__^
if may was there too it will be nice. four of us together. but i think it okay for she didnt go this penang trip cos she will be leaving for kl with her boyf on 3rd june - 6th june. 五月的小黄花好幸福! ^^
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
❥Friendship
Sometimes I like to make new friend, sometimes I don’t. There are times when I feel extremely friendly and I have a great feeling that I am the nicest person on earth, smiley sincerely all the time. Yet, there are times which I am not bothered even a dust bit to think about other ppl, just being a meanie me make me feel that I am evil enough and I like how it feels.
Like most of you, I have a huge circle of friends too, as well as some heart-to-heart friends. From them i also learn that sometimes ppl u've known for the longest time understand u the least...
My friends, be it girl or boy, often tell me how lonely they will get cos they didn’t have a bf/gf lolx. I myself havent meet my future bf yet, but im happy and satisfy with my current life. My dearest family members and lovely friends are always there for me, like I am to them. ( only to ppl I like =] )
I really treasure the friendship I share between my best friend, MayMay and I. She is just like the others, but the feeling I get when she is around is something different. Calm and relaxing. Like honeydew ^^
My current gaming bff, Frembell, is another friend I like to spent my time with. Pure and innocent just like the name. Frem can’t keep a secret, vulnerable to temptation, has a quite fragile heart. Sometimes we play online game together until 4am. Go to bed only when the cuckoos call lolx. I like to tease Frem while we are gaming very very early in the morning and make Frem cooks a super early breakfast ( before dawn hits ! haha ! ). I get hungry easily at night and I don’t want to hunt for the foods alone lolx.
Other bff-alike I have is Mr Lawrence. I knew him since I was 13 but I never talk to him until we became classmate last last year. We played something like 酒酒家 and they positioned him as my brother ! Well, he is really like a brother, protective and I always seek advices from him. He understands me much better than the others and always got it right about my weird mood swings. May our friendship last long ! ^^
Nocturnes : this girl is one of a kind. Smart and never stop looking for new facts to quench her thirst for knowledge. My boy friend used to label her as a wild cat – brrr ATTACK ! Contradictorily, she is just a cute tame meow if she lets you into her world . I think she acts like that just bcos she feel insecure to the outside world, you know why.
Mochacha : our HappyKnights guild’s leader. Chubby and dirty minded. Always talk nonsense. But he is full of responsibility, kind and faithful to his friends. Not stingy. Forgiver. A friend worth to fight for. =]
Mildseven : emo devil. Always brighten the atmosphere when he is around. Many ppl like to be with him. Has a sensitive heart. Used to be a heavy smoker but now is cutting down the amount of cigarette each day and on ( hope i write this fact right ! =] ). Still chasing the true love of his life. Hopefully he will get her one day.
Rex Army : we share same surname, so literally he is my brother. Age is younger than me but he looks older haha. Like an uncle. Very hardworking. Has high determination. Enjoy helping other ppl. I’ll always support him, only the good deeds lah. =]
Kymme : my far far away relative. Look strong on the outside but weak on the inside. Currently is a prisoner of her first love. Kinda girly, so spending some time with her make me more feminine lolx. She looks quite hard to approach at first, things change after you get to know more about her. Shake her hand and u’ll feel like rubbing Johnson baby’s lotion on your palm haha !
May our friendship last long ! ^__^

