一个人，两个人，三个人

一个人，
就只是自己，
不必顾虑得太多，
自己过得开心就好。

两个人，
从来没有向你表示过，
但是做任何事都会先想到你，
开心的伤心的都会双倍感受到。

三个人，
你我她不同人，
既然是睡同一张床的，
从来就不跟任何人计较，
但是为什么有时喜欢闹脾气？

# 表达能力越来越差。。 很讨厌被误会的感觉 ：（

Broken Mirror

I had never met someone so similar to me. Until I met you.

So much freaking resemblances that I used to think that at some point we would know and understand each other's thoughts. But i was wrong about you.... actually, I don't know what is really on your mind. I don't know why you always think that I'd betrayed you, when you are one of those friends that I've really treasured and put hearty friendship into. I might act like I don't care, or I might not loved you like how you've  wanted to. And I've always have problem expressing my feelings, to you, no exception. But one thing I'm very sure of, when I'm really really mad, sad or disappointing to someone I really care, I won't talk to them for awhile. I'm well aware words that are spoken can't be taken back. Plus my shitty temper, I was scared that I would say things that I'll regret when my EQ is at its lowest pit. So I thought bringing cold shoulder into the zone would be the best solution, hoping that time will sweep every bad things away and then we will be okay again.

But you came and made me realized alot of things. I see myself in you. I learnt about myself. I was so happy with your presence, until I don't know how and when things started to go wrong. It hurts me so much. Unlike you, I don't like to show my weakness to the others. This is one of the leo ppl's traits i guess ha. Trying to hide the pain under the poker face actually hurt so much more wtf. And hell, this is the only thing that I didn't being honest with you.

I sincerely hope that the stupid vicious cycle drop at the very last time we stopped it. It is torturing. Let be really honest with each other. There is no other ppl who know ourselves more that we are. I was weak and careless, to let certain ppl got into my clear judgments. FYI, I'd became such soft hearted and weak after I came here ha. So much contradictions to all the things you had said about me.

I also isn't fake when I've no choice but to be good to someone I dislike, you know who I meant here don't you ;)

The Story Of Us

I don't know what to say
Since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

This is looking like a contest,
Of who can act like they care less,
But I liked it better when you were on my side.

The battle's in your hands now,
But I would lay my armor down
If you said you'd rather love than fight.
So many things that you wished I knew,
But the story of us might be ending soon.

I'm Big Bad!

I'm Not Ok

即使对一些真相，接受不到，但还是必须接纳它。

很讨厌这样的感觉。。这个人不是我啊。。

我朋友说：

其实很多时候，在你接触人久的时候，你就会慢慢开始了解一个人，他的小小一个动作就会透露他是一个怎样的人。很多时候我们不说，不讲，因为我们知道一种米养百种人。。

人累了，就休息；长大了，很多东西都看透了。

一颗真心真的很宝贵。

心情不好时，你可以哭泣，不过哭过之后记得擦干眼泪继续朝着你的目标走。

this sem is hell for me, double hell cuz i m retaking math. feel like shit and my emotion really goes very very unstable everytime i do her tutorials (so far only tutorials havent even tests and assigmnets yo!). i did tried to get help from my friend, who is a chemical engineer, whom mathematic skill is supposed to be better than me. but then, end up he also went like 'wtfffffff' and in the end i have to do it all by myself.. i really feel so helpless and hopeless everytime i do it, and i always cry first so that i could concentrate better after i clear up my minds with tears.. everytime i do 1 question, i will try to persuade my comrades to drop this subject with me. but they all refuse. haih and so, i continue to live this miserable life T__T

獅子座

獅子不是冷血動物

如果獅子主動跟你分手，愛著獅子的人應該好好想想你把獅子傷的有多深。

其實獅子很包容，甚至愛你的時候連自己的性格都願意為對方改變
這只有愛過獅子的才知道。

你沒有看到過獅子的眼淚，是因為他從來不會在人面前哭
除非你真的把他們的真心奪走了。

獅子座真正喜歡的東西，是會執著的讓人害怕
根本就不知道放棄是什麼，除非是他們自己發現這東西不值得。

獅子的自尊很重要，對於他們最重要的恐怕就是這個了
他們懂得原諒，無數次的去試著原諒
就算別人讓自己千瘡百孔，他們也會無條件的有自己的寬容
因為他們的自尊不允許自己放棄這個世界。

獅子從不哭，從不認輸，從不屈服
太過忍耐，太過高傲、累死還在維護他那要命的自尊

喜歡一個人安靜的聆聽單曲迴圈一首很傷感的音樂
喜歡自由，有著最完美主義傾向
喜歡把事情做的極端，要嘛最好，要嘛最差
但是不管怎樣他從來不會認輸

他的思維從不受限制
喜歡天馬行空的想像，個性不容別人踐踏。

【獅子座的原則】
1、能不罵人，就不罵！一旦罵，就往死裡罵
2、騙我罵我可以，但不要被我知道
3、我可以容忍，但別超過我的底線
4、我可以裝傻，但別以為我真傻
5、不喜歡就是不喜歡，說啥也沒用
6、任何的真話，我都能接受
7、對我真心的，我會雙倍回報
8、對於裝熟者，不留臉面

ps : found this on fb. very true (@.@)

I refuse to sink.

哭的时候没人哄，我学会了坚强；

怕的时候没人陪，我学会了勇敢；

烦的时候没人问，我学会了承受；

累的时候没人可以依靠，我学会了自立。

一个人，如果不坚强，软弱给谁看?

DrunkenConfession

Yeah another sleepless night, what can i do justcantsleepwtf.
To tell the truth, despite of my carefree attitude and all-day-happy face, everyday i m living in fear. I know i m stupid to let everyone knows what i really am by writing things honestly here, but my friend Eddie influenced me one. Reading his blog made me wonder 'walao why ones could expressed every detailed feelings and thoughts he has so publicly'. But then, maybe this is the difference between boy and girl bah.

... i m not sure what should i write le..
so here i would like to share my fav song 'InTheEnd - LinkinPark'

This is not the end This is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady Something empty's within 'em
We say Yeah! With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
That's invisible there, 'Cause we're living at the mercy of The pain and the fear
Until we dead it Forget it Let it all disappear
Waiting for the end to come Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned It's out of my control....
Flying at the speed of light Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid It's hard to let you go...
(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on, I know how it feels to lie
All I wanna do Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got
Sitting in an empty room Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last, I wish it wasn't so...
What was left when that fire was gone?
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And i don't even know what kind of things I've said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?
The hardest part of ending Is starting again!!
All I wanna do Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what i haven't got...

I always like how LP talk about life and reality through their songs.
So true and true =]
Though sometimes i talk alot but til now i still dont know how to expressed my real feelings.. Always want to act tough and all that and sometimes i m really tired.. I wonder when can i really really clear out everything that is kept in me, except the temper, aih really cant help with it.

And love, i cant even love myself, how can i love another? And you come back to me again after year, asking for my love once again, and i once again have to deny it.. sincerely i m really sorry..