Yeah another sleepless night, what can i do justcantsleepwtf.
To tell the truth, despite of my carefree attitude and all-day-happy face, everyday i m living in fear. I know i m stupid to let everyone knows what i really am by writing things honestly here, but my friend Eddie influenced me one. Reading his blog made me wonder 'walao why ones could expressed every detailed feelings and thoughts he has so publicly'. But then, maybe this is the difference between boy and girl bah.
... i m not sure what should i write le..
so here i would like to share my fav song 'InTheEnd - LinkinPark'
This is not the end This is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady Something empty's within 'em
We say Yeah! With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
That's invisible there, 'Cause we're living at the mercy of The pain and the fear
Until we dead it Forget it Let it all disappear
Waiting for the end to come Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned It's out of my control....
Flying at the speed of light Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid It's hard to let you go...
(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on, I know how it feels to lie
All I wanna do Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got
Sitting in an empty room Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last, I wish it wasn't so...
What was left when that fire was gone?
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And i don't even know what kind of things I've said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?
The hardest part of ending Is starting again!!
All I wanna do Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what i haven't got...
I always like how LP talk about life and reality through their songs.
So true and true =]
Though sometimes i talk alot but til now i still dont know how to expressed my real feelings.. Always want to act tough and all that and sometimes i m really tired.. I wonder when can i really really clear out everything that is kept in me, except the temper, aih really cant help with it.
And love, i cant even love myself, how can i love another? And you come back to me again after year, asking for my love once again, and i once again have to deny it.. sincerely i m really sorry..
