A nightmare of nothing

hi ppl ! finally i can online haha. im using maxis broadband. poor signal strength. i can open blogger only lolx. but nvm lah cos i borrow banyak buah buku from may hahahaha. living in vampire mountain these few days.

as some of you acknowledged, me and my friends went to penang for 2 nights. it wasn't really anticipating at first where they had canceled it somewhere near the date. the cancellation was expected ( the planning process was kinda 'weak' ) but i had butt myself in last minutely and made it happened. voila ! for maymay and piggy i will !

unfortunately... may didn't go...

her boyf brought her camera along so that he can take beautiful photos of the butterflies ( butterfly farm ) and foods for her. he bought some presents for her too. one bag full with soft toys, i wonder if may wants to share with me some hahaha.

i tried to attach some photos with this post so that u guys can have a better view of what we'd at penang ( excusing myself from writing so many words also haha ) but failed cos internet speed SUPER SLOW la !! btw, i think those photos are very wuliao cos it is taken by a wuliao me who does everything in my wuliao way. lagipun, we didnt do anything special there. we ate char kuey tiaw, penang laksa, cendol, rojak, sakae etc. we watched the green ogre, a nightmare on elm street and prince dastan. we spent most of the time walking and waiting. waiting for the shops to open, waiting for buses, waiting for the movie. sound very wuliao right? sebenarnya its fun ! very fun to be with yanyan and a fon. bring back the school days memories. ^__^

if may was there too it will be nice. four of us together. but i think it okay for she didnt go this penang trip cos she will be leaving for kl with her boyf on 3rd june - 6th june. 五月的小黄花好幸福！ ^^

❥Friendship

Sometimes I like to make new friend, sometimes I don’t. There are times when I feel extremely friendly and I have a great feeling that I am the nicest person on earth, smiley sincerely all the time. Yet, there are times which I am not bothered even a dust bit to think about other ppl, just being a meanie me make me feel that I am evil enough and I like how it feels.

Like most of you, I have a huge circle of friends too, as well as some heart-to-heart friends. From them i also learn that sometimes ppl u've known for the longest time understand u the least...

My friends, be it girl or boy, often tell me how lonely they will get cos they didn’t have a bf/gf lolx. I myself havent meet my future bf yet, but im happy and satisfy with my current life. My dearest family members and lovely friends are always there for me, like I am to them. ( only to ppl I like =] )

I really treasure the friendship I share between my best friend, MayMay and I. She is just like the others, but the feeling I get when she is around is something different. Calm and relaxing. Like honeydew ^^

My current gaming bff, Frembell, is another friend I like to spent my time with. Pure and innocent just like the name. Frem can’t keep a secret, vulnerable to temptation, has a quite fragile heart. Sometimes we play online game together until 4am. Go to bed only when the cuckoos call lolx. I like to tease Frem while we are gaming very very early in the morning and make Frem cooks a super early breakfast ( before dawn hits ! haha ! ). I get hungry easily at night and I don’t want to hunt for the foods alone lolx.

Other bff-alike I have is Mr Lawrence. I knew him since I was 13 but I never talk to him until we became classmate last last year. We played something like 酒酒家 and they positioned him as my brother ! Well, he is really like a brother, protective and I always seek advices from him. He understands me much better than the others and always got it right about my weird mood swings. May our friendship last long ! ^^

Nocturnes : this girl is one of a kind. Smart and never stop looking for new facts to quench her thirst for knowledge. My boy friend used to label her as a wild cat – brrr ATTACK ! Contradictorily, she is just a cute tame meow if she lets you into her world . I think she acts like that just bcos she feel insecure to the outside world, you know why.

Mochacha : our HappyKnights guild’s leader. Chubby and dirty minded. Always talk nonsense. But he is full of responsibility, kind and faithful to his friends. Not stingy. Forgiver. A friend worth to fight for. =]

Mildseven : emo devil. Always brighten the atmosphere when he is around. Many ppl like to be with him. Has a sensitive heart. Used to be a heavy smoker but now is cutting down the amount of cigarette each day and on ( hope i write this fact right ! =] ). Still chasing the true love of his life. Hopefully he will get her one day.

Rex Army : we share same surname, so literally he is my brother. Age is younger than me but he looks older haha. Like an uncle. Very hardworking. Has high determination. Enjoy helping other ppl. I’ll always support him, only the good deeds lah. =]

Kymme : my far far away relative. Look strong on the outside but weak on the inside. Currently is a prisoner of her first love. Kinda girly, so spending some time with her make me more feminine lolx. She looks quite hard to approach at first, things change after you get to know more about her. Shake her hand and u’ll feel like rubbing Johnson baby’s lotion on your palm haha !

May our friendship last long ! ^__^

聽媽媽的話

小朋友　你是否有很多問號　為甚麼
別人在那看漫畫　我卻在學畫畫　對著鋼琴說話
別人在玩遊戲　我卻靠在牆壁背我的ABC
我說我要一架大大的飛機　我卻得到一只舊舊螺旋機
為甚麼　要聽媽媽的話　長大後你就會開始懂得這種話　哼

長大後我開始明白　為甚麼我跑的比別人快　飛的比別人高
將來大家看的都是我畫的漫畫　大家唱的都是　我寫的歌
媽媽的辛苦　不讓你看見　溫柔的事　是否在她心裡面
有空就多多握握她的手　把手牽著一起夢遊

聽媽媽的話　別讓她受傷　想快快長大　才能保護她
美麗的白髮　幸福中發芽　天使的魔法　溫暖中慈祥

在你的未來　音樂是你的王牌　那王牌談個戀愛
而我不想被你教壞　還是聽媽媽的話吧　晚點在戀愛吧
我知道你未來的路　幹嘛比我更清楚　
你因為太多學習的同學在這塊寫東寫西
但我在　媽媽我會用功讀書　用功讀書　怎麼會從我嘴巴說出
不想你輸所以要叫你　用功讀書嗎

媽媽交給你的毛筆　你要好好收著
因為不許告訴我　也告訴他我還留著
對了　我會遇到了周潤發
所以你可以跟同學炫耀　賭神未來是你爸爸

我找不到你寫的情書　你喜歡的要承認
因為我會了解你　會在操場上牽她
你會開始喜歡唱流行歌　因為張學友開始準備唱吻別

好爽哦！

copy that title from alice lolx.

昨天又一个人呆在家里，所以就趁此机会自己剪自己的头发。哈哈 为什么剪自己的头发也要偷偷的呢？因为家里的妈咪会唠唠叨叨个不停 XD

天气热热的，我整个人都要溶化掉咯。。剪东剪西，最后剪出一个我个人很满意的发型了。哈哈哈哈。。很可爱咯 ~ XD

可是过后家里的那个妈咪回来了，看我的新发型后，便一直在那边念个不停 =3= 她问我头发是不是被老鼠咬过。。。

今天，为了要停掉耳边的那个ipod, 我去理发店那里打算从新剪过。。。可是。。那个aunty说我的发型好好看了 好像蘑菇 哈哈哈哈哈哈 开心死我了。但是妈咪不在场。。。。

过后为了不让家里的妈咪失望，我还是随随便便叫她帮我剪短头发，收刘海。。之前我自己剪的发型比现在的还可爱 T___T

龍捲風

愛像一陣風 吹完它就走
這樣的節奏 誰都無可奈何
沒有妳以後 我靈魂失控
黑雲在降落 我被它拖著走

靜靜悄悄默默離開
陷入了危險邊緣 Baby~
我的世界已狂風暴雨

愛情來的太快就像龍捲風
離不開暴風圈來不及逃
我不能再想 我不能再想
我不 我不 我不能

愛情走的太快就像龍捲風
不能承受 我已無處可躲
我不要再想 我不要再想
我不 我不 我不要再想你

不知不覺 你已經離開我
不知不覺 我跟了這節奏
後知後覺 又過了一個秋
後知後覺 我該好好生活

currently addicted to - - -> 《下一站，幸福》

米修米修 ~ ^__^

my dream

when i was a younger kiddo, i have plenty of dreams that i want to accomplish one day. one of these childhood dreams is having my own farm. haha. im gonna grow a lot of sunflowers like the picture above.. rear some milk cows and chickens.. maybe a horse and two goats... if im lucky enough, maybe i'll have a loving hubby by my side at that time, so that we can pick the prettiest flowers together and delivered them to the floral shops.. then use our farm cows' milk to make ice - creams, yogurt and cheese.... teehehehe.. a lil gal's dream.. not bad huh? XD

Touch My Hand

don't know since when, go to kb with our HappyKnights clan's members on every friday is like one of the routine for me. lolx. but yesterday, instead of going out with them, i chose to stay at home.. cos i were sick o(╯□╰)o blame it on the hot weather la haha. every foods i ate, every drinks i had, all tasteless de. lolx. even the cake my mami just bought also taste like biasa punya kuih muih -3- but a sick me didnt looked like a sick me lolx. i went to my cousin house.. play play play.. then came back wk-ing.. play play play until 2,3am with elune hahahahaha

fruits season is coming soon, i can smell 榴莲花 in the air ^__^ what is ur favourite fruit ?

i know there are some readers who always keep up with my blog despite of the boringness and lack of update ^__^ thanks guys. pls leave a trail so that i know whats ya think about my blog/post ok ?

ps : next friday also cannot go out.. my cousin kahwin xD

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holiday is great !! really great cos i have so much more time for myself, not being with the crowd. just me n my darlin computer ~ my very own time. =]

another great part of having such a long holiday is that i've a lot of time to ponder about my life. not just think for 10 minutes when certain problems arise n come out with a solution that i thought was the best.

turtle said im like a kid cos i get happy easily. lolx. im *secret* years old this year, but age is just a number lah. so being happy has nothing to do with age keke.

someone said i'd changed a lot. he said i used to be a happy-go-lucky girl who was not worry for anything cos i always has a back up plan. lol ? i was?? @@ hmm... f6 life really changed me a lot. i always blame other ppl for making my life so miserable, yet actually it was myself. i was too absurd to let all the problems strangle myself n thus almost destroyed the last ticket to university. lolx. but nvm lah, the lessons are learned n im ok with it. XD

about ppl that had left ~ umm... keep on mourning wont bring someone back to ur life again. so why should i depressed myself? lolx. when u love someone, let them go, if they come back then it was meant to be. haha. 简简单单地爱你 ~

人，总是喜欢然自己活在回忆里；为何不让自己走出回忆，到未来去看看，看未来的世界是多么的美好.. 多么的美丽.. 多么的令人感到期待。^__^

Mark Twain ~ (^.^)b

Far Away

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know
I wanted, I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed, I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along and I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing 'cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing 'cause I'm not leaving you anymore

ps : distance is not a reason to separate u and me. though we are far away from each other, but i din't worry nor doubt u, cos i believe in u. u set my mind at ease, relieved and for the first time, i feel that i don't have to worry for anything cos i'll always have u. thanks. ^__^

- i miss yew -

习惯了寂寞

身边有很多知心朋友

但有时还会觉得很寂寞

常常都在想
想想自己的现在，过去和未来
想了很多很多没用的东西

伤心的曲子一直都是孤单最好的解药
一个人静静地欣赏它 ~ 那种感觉好好 ~~

孤独的心啊 在笔下融化
转身的刹那 润湿了脸颊

pc fair

i worked as a promoter for about 4 days at pikom pc fair 2010 lolx. this is the very first time i actually went to a pc fair wakaka. my boss namanya jacky, dia datang dari kl bersama seorang staffnya yang bernama ah long. hehehe i talked a lot, most of the time malay, so now my voice is kinda weird weird one, or should i say kinda sexy ~~ kekeke. sekarang sudah takda kerja, jadi bolehlah saya rilek depan komputer sambil makan dark choc. lolx. i also dunno lah why i wrote in malay, maybe bcos i talked TOO MUCH malay in this 3 days. "cik cik yang ni bagus nih" "uncle uncle bag nih sangat high kualiti lagi harganya berpatutan" repeat the same lines again and again, just like 2pm's again and again played by one of the booths. siapa ye yang mainkan lagu tu? dia mainkan lagu jay chou juga tau XD

my bro said he wants to belanja me makan teehehe. actually i am a very very blessed lucky girl. i don't know why, but many ppl love me despite of the fact that im not a good obedient girl.. u know... like how a good girl should behave? stay at home, be a filial daughter, belajar rajin rajin, don't mix around with the boys too much etc. in add, im probably 1 of the laziest human alive =.= the laziest girl among my girl friends. but i don't really care la what other ppl said, they say lah what they want, im clean and i didnt do anything illegal. wtf u are to judge me. u dont know me so dont act like u know me. blekkkkkkkkkkzzzzzzzz =.= but i care about what my parents and loved ones feel so in the fucking end i have no other choice but to care sikit sikit.

退后

天空灰得像哭过
离开你以后
并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
嗅出我们的距离
一幕锥心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息
抽屉泛黄的日记
榨干了回忆
那笑容是夏季
你我的过去
被顺时针地忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
粗心的眼泪是多余
我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待续

wonder babies

found a r***** in wonderking @@
btw haven't see 老人L new character yet....

maybe he'll look like legolas? XD

特别朋友

两个可能彼此相爱、喜欢的人，
但是，又不属于友情、爱情、亲情中的任何一种...

也许彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线..
不过即使没在一起，彼此仍能找到塌实的感觉....
仍然会保持不隶属任何一种感情的关系....

但是彼此心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心...

因为有了彼此，心里总是被幸福塞得满满的..

即使不能彼此名正言顺的牵着手逛街，还是可以做无所不谈的朋友..

对方遇到困难时，会尽全力伸出援助之手，不会计较谁又欠了谁...
对方生病了，会缴尽脑汁找药方，恨不得变成护士，陪伴在身旁..

每个人这辈子，心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为....

很多的感情，都败在了现实的面前...

人生不过百年....
能牵手的时候，请别只是肩并肩，
能拥抱的时候，请别只是手牵手，
能在一起的时候，请别轻易分开，
能成为红颜知己，请别刻意离开！

Do You Call This A Friend

well, she is my friend too. she is not that bad lah actually. if you response to her differently when she is 'taking advantage' on you, maybe she will change? one way or another, tell her what you dont like? you said im different, yes i am, i told her directly what i dislike. maybe you should try too? find a right time and talk things to her? don't tell me she wouldn't want to listen to u.... u want i show u an example? i can do that with ease and no pride will be lost nor any cat fight is involved. trust me. what is the point of trying to bear with her when she is with you but then complaint about her at her back? useless..

riot !

i mms this pic to GF ! XD

为什么啊?

为什么最近的天空那么爱哭 ~
为什么雨后的天空是金黄色的 ~
为什么谈同一个话题的感觉以人而异 ~
为什么一张普通的表格需要酱久的时间来填满它 ~
为什么简单的一个举动也可以让人感动到流泪 ~
为什么你对自己那么的没有信心 ~
为什么心情低落的时候特别喜欢听情歌 ~
为什么你常常来搅拌我的梦 ~
为什么天总是在我想你的时候不知不觉的亮了 ~
为什么脑袋不要去除过去的回忆 ~
为什么会想你想到掉眼泪 ~
为什么眀是想念你的却要否认 ~
为什么有你在的时候心里觉得很温馨 ~
为什么明明很喜欢你却不去好好地握紧你的手 ~
为什么越在乎的人，反而越會對他產生誤會 ~
为什么越在乎的人，犯錯反而越不能原諒他 ~
为什么越在乎的人，反而對他會越不客氣 ~
为什么越在乎的人，反而越會裝做不在乎 ~

Fallen

nice cover.. i wonder if the story is nice too ?

one of the reason why im so hooked to Gokusen. nyahahahaha

Rose, Rose, I Love You

recently, there's many love love love around me. some found their love, some lost their love, some still doubt whether or not it is love or just ambiguity, and there are hell lot of 感情 related articles and videos on facebook ! wtf.

i asked jc to write this because he has that simple yet blessed true love story of him and his lover. hehe. but things arent easy and beautiful like what he wrote lah. he is lucky that he got to know may's likes and dislikes from *erhem*. he had to tame me first n used me as a ticket to smuggle may to kb before they officially become a couple. 我很伟大的叻 ~ wakaka

that sweet lovey dovey love stories are really not as 'easy' as what we see with our naked eyes. many efforts, time, patience, wronged, heartache and tears are involved. in cheng's case, our help played a minor role only, its he himself that attracted the rose. not bad eh ? the thorns might pricks him before he can get the best rose.

love, to me, means heart. so ppl who love with all their heart looks stupid to me ~ hahahaha.. stupid in a cute and good way of course. ^^

若是有缘，时间空间都不是距离，若是无缘总是相聚也无法合意。凡事不必太在意，更不需去强求，就让一切随缘。逃避不一定躲得过；面对不一定最难过；孤独不一 定不快乐；得到不一定长久；失去不一定不再拥有。爱是一种享受，即使痛苦也会觉得幸福；爱是一种体会，即使心碎也会觉得甜蜜；爱是一种经历，即使破碎也会 觉得美丽；不要因为寂寞而错爱，不要因为错爱而寂寞一生。

不是男朋友的男朋友

每个女生心里都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友。。
你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。
也许为了自己的前程，她没有要你等她。

也许你们相遇太早，
还不懂得珍惜对方。

也许你们相遇太晚，
你们身边已经有了另一个人。

也许你回头太迟，
对方已不再等待。

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，
而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，
你们还是保持了朋友的关系。

但是你们心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，
你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

她有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，
心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望她追到。

她遇到困难时，
你会尽你所能的帮她，
不会计较谁又欠了谁。

男女朋友吃醋了，
你会安抚他们说你和她只是朋友，
但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，
心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，
很矛盾的行为。

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，
但久了，突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心她，
总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。

你宁愿做她的朋友，
彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。

特别是这样，
你还是知道，
她永远会关心你的。

做不成男女朋友，
当她那个特别的朋友，
有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？

很多的感情，
都因为一厢情愿，
最后连朋友都当不成了

常常觉得惋惜，
可惜一些本来很好的友情

最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，
如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，
这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，
表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，
要不就连朋友都当不成了。

有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，
你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的......

有些人，有些事，既然发生了.... 就注定是你一生的回忆···

UMS or MMU ?

Haiiihh~~~ this university thingy is still bugging me lah... mami keep talking about the disadvantages of choosing ums and wouldnt want me to pick that uni =.= she is so cruel la.. keep kicking at my achilles' heel.. private college is so not me la, we are poor de eh mami -.- i think i will not be able to own new converse or new sony ericsson for the next few years la if i choose private college.. T_T

ps : dear dreamy alice, time will heal everything.. good luck ^__^

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2. the beautiful japanese friend of mine ^^


3. the infamous fast n furious nissan's driver with the pretty 10 ^^


4. the handsome vampire-like guy i met on facebook ^^


5. the cute sista ^^

That's all. have a nice day yo ! hahah ~ =.= i miss u ~ ^^

=.=

我一直都想对你说

你给我想不到的快乐

甜蜜又安心

那种感觉就是你

Dare to be different

Today sien lar.. woke up when the 10000th raindrop hit the rooftop.. brunch and then staring into the monitor and surfing the internet like a zombie...

Wish i can go out... tapi malas juga.. bored.. because of the rules and the ppl =.=

Hanging out with my buddies is fun, but i killed the fun cos im worried about the nagging ppl... Everything is so same.. nothing new and im very very very very bored =.=

Gonna try something different and give them a heart attack !!

it's you

=.=

hahahahahahahahahaha
i miss u

赤い糸

"An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet,
regardless of time, place, or circumstance.
The thread may stretch or tangle, but it will never break."

你听得到

有谁能比我知道 你的温柔像羽毛
秘密躺在我怀抱 只有你能听得到
还有没有人知道 你的微笑像拥抱
多想藏着你的好 只有我看得到
站在屋顶只对风说不想被左右
本来讨厌下雨的天空
直到听见有人说爱我
坐在电影院的二楼看人群走过
怎么那一天的我们 都默默地微笑很久
我想我是太过依赖 在挂电话的刚才
坚持学单纯的小孩 静静看守这份爱
知道不能太依赖 怕你会把我宠坏
你的香味一直徘徊 我舍不得离开

Kiss Me

Kiss me out of the bearded barley

Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress
Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me
Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map
Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Music Box Dancer

by ♥_Jessica_♥(Taking requests)

照る照る坊主 [ teru teru bouzu ]

晴天娃娃，晴天娃娃，但愿明天是个好天气。
如果是这样，就给你个金铃铛。

晴天娃娃，晴天娃娃，但愿明天是个好天气。
如果是这样，就给你美味的酒。

回到过去

一盏黄黄旧旧的灯 时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸 不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生 静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影 失去平衡 慢慢下沉

黑暗已在空中盘旋 该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端 无法存活在真实的空间

想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里 羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界 想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去
试着让故事继续 至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意 这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及 想回到过去

思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁

想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里 羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界 想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去
试着让故事继续 至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意 这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及 想回到过去

沉默支撑跃过陌生 静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影 失去平衡 慢慢下沉 想回到过去

Punch bag

Dang dang D - A - N - G !

我emo的方式很特别吧。。一大堆的甜言蜜语不断地溢出来。。乱乱惹人家生气。。乱乱点人家的短处。。嗯。。你们最好远离我。。我自己也控制不到自己的情绪 ^_____^

明天就是 D-day 了。。

T__T

过后的我，还可以开开心心的哼着歌曲吗? -3-

Hachikō ハチ公

Mango stumbled upon a movie called Hachiko and she is downloading it :D These piccies really caught my eyes :D I like doggies :D And maymay gonna love this movie too ! :D

Above cute pic is posted by a facebook's friend. Very cute hor (n_n) suits my current mood XD

ps : who want to go penang with me ? >.<

我很悲观

25/2 。。我很不想去学校。。
第一，我很怕面对事实
第二，我不敢面对我的化学老师。。。
第三，我怕我会突然间大哭起来。。吓到周围的人。。。
第四，我不想看到恶心的人。。
突然间觉得自己很没用。。平时拥有的自信被自己的胡思乱想给吓跑了。。


当天会是怎样的天气呢 ?
T_T

•° Tiger Woohoo ! •°

Yo ! 大家大家，恭喜发财 ！万事如意 !!

This year CNY, as usual, is a busy one for my family and I ! Guests keep coming and go. Ang pao in and out. ( In as in the married ones give us, out as in my mami give to the children. )

The only different would be that I'm wearing skirt/dress. Woot ! Trying something new is no harm and they said I'm pretty in these attires :D

Dadi and my uncles let me have lots of beers and wines this new year which caused heartburn or maybe acid reflux... Thus, I'm taking in more H2O to filter off the saturated amount of alcohol...

Hmmm... nothing much to share.. everythin' is great ! Haha ! Tomorrow my friends and I will gather up and attack our victims' houses for ang pao ! ATTACK !

情人节快乐 ！

如果神给你四天时间去和你最爱的人在一起，你希望是那几天呢？如果神把时限缩短至三天，两天，或一天，你有希望是哪几天呢？请写下四三二一天的答案…
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四天：春天夏天秋天冬天
三天：昨天今天明天
两天：白天黑天
一天：每一天

Happiness 快乐

I might cry my eyes out when I get my results which is around March. Thus, in making me super vulnerable to any after-getting-bad-result's mental crackdown, I'm preparing myself with some 'backup plans', in case I cant get into any universities. I'm very happy with my new plans. Now I'm very clear with what I want and I will try my best to get it. =)

For the time being, I'm :
- trying to surround myself with the best of what i have, treasure every inches of the things i possess as well as every minutes I spent doing either things i like or things i loathe while I'm still breathing.

- fixing some wrecked relationships.. and I wont stop doing it until they are all well-mended ( It's possible and I'm one of the living examples of how an erhem friendship can turn into something so wonderful ). =)

Step back and things will be brighter.

heart u darling ! =]

The Saltwater Room

I opened my eyes last night and saw you in the low light
Walking down by the bay, on the shore
Staring up at the planes that aren’t there anymore
I was feeling the night grow old and you were looking so cold
Like an introvert, I drew my over shirt
Around my arms and began to shiver violently before
You happened to look and see the tunnels all around me
Running into the dark underground
All the subways around create a great sound
To my motion fatigue: farewell
With your ear to a seashell
You can hear the waves in underwater caves
As if you actually were inside a saltwater room

Time together isn't ever quite enough
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we're apart, whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?
All the time, all the time

Can you believe that the crew has gone and wouldn’t let me sign on
All my islands have sunk in the deep, so I can hardly relax or even oversleep
I feel as if I were home some nights, when we count all the ship lights
I guess I'll never know why sparrows love the snow
We’ll turn out all of the lights and set this ballroom a glow

So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time.

Time together isn't ever quite enough
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time, all the time

Time together isn't ever quite enough
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time

ps : dont forget to vote for Fireflies !! :D :D :D

有你在，天天都是情人节

好想让你知道

喜欢你的原因....

喜欢你牵着我的手过路

喜欢你骑车抱着你的感觉

喜欢你驾车的潇洒样

喜欢你给我的安全感

喜欢你为我做的每一样事

喜欢听你说我们的Forever and Always

你的微笑 你的眼神 你的每个动作

慢慢地带走我的心跳

好想让你知道

将到的情人节

你什么都不需为我特别做

因为只要有你在我身边

天天都是超甜蜜的情人节 ^^

Turn to you

Right now.. I feel so helpless and so scared... There's a mixture of feelings in my heart which is making me feeling very uncomfortable... I dont feel like want to talk to anyone right now.. It is not that i dont want to talk to.. but there's no appropriate place for me to turn to... I definitely dont want to bother my friends and let them hear me whine... Hence I had to AFK-ed Huntx and Turtle... I think I might cry because of dunno-what reason wtf -.- .... Everyone is busy with the UPU and USM thingy... Cheng has his dad to help him to talk about the-very-duno-wth-I-worry-about problems while filling the forms and deciding what courses to take... I know sitting here blogging wont help me with anything.. Yet i need someone to talk to... Thus my blog is the best place I could find to 'turn' to...Im self-conscious that Im a big girl now... And yeah my parents say they will support me no matter what decision I make.. And I already know what I want in my life.. But somehow I still worry and scare ( very very scare ) at the same time... I used to be an insomniac and it was very torturing.. I think I didnt manage myself wisely in 2008/09.. Everything was so sucks and I want to get out of my former school as soon as I can... The irritating stalker as well as the school itself.. On the bright side, I like my teachers and what I learn to the max =) But still, final is always haunting me.. Just cant help myself not to think about it everytime I fill the application form.. Im running out of words... I think I better go drug myself with some entertainment... =.=""

uǝddɐɥ sǝlɔɐɹıɯ ǝdoɥ ı

ps : special kudos to Turtle n Victor n Huntx who can bare with my dunno-what mood streak. I know Im hard to be understand. xD

Mr Al III

Halo.. i write this exclusively for you. Er hem.. *clear throat* not going to blabber much just wanna say appreciate my darling may may more like i do ( more than me la ) okay ? Remember the poems you wrote for her ? One of them goes like this :

O' Rose,
A beauty like your name,
Though sometimes, you're hard to tame,
But thoughts about you always come,
Always telling me to stay calm.
That I want you not for fun or fame,
Like thought by some,
But for you taking me
As who I just am,
And resists that I, at times, am troublesome,
Hence, to you, my heart always the same,
Same, always the same.

Though I dont understand the fun and fame part but show her what you feel/wrote man.
Lastly, I want to share this sweet song with both of you. 祝永远相爱 ！快快乐乐在一起 ！xD

ps : You two make me wants to have a bf also you know. How lucky for both of you to have each other. *Jealous jealous* haha

Talk

Its hard for me to ignore nor talk about other ppl, especially when they are the ppl around me. I know I've been a jerk by commenting on other ppl's life. But hey, I'm not a saint la -.-

At least I didn't said it at your back.. or maybe you prefer me to do so ? It cause less pain in the ear coz you wouldn't know about it. =3 I can see that you are commenting ( negatively ) about other ppl too. Can you tell me what makes this a different between me and you ? So ridiculously ironic.

Sometimes things aint how they look.. Human beings are just so damn cute coz we love to judge things based on what we see, hear, look, etc without further thinking.. Perhaps we are just too busy to get to know about things slightly deeper even if they are our so called friends. -.-

ps : look at what an inane crap I can write inspired from a sentence I saw on Facebook. m3ow ~

Baa Baa Black Sheep

First week without internet was so agonizing.. I'd nothing to do.. There's no any other mall for me to have a good shop nor cinema to hit with. No good book. No good game. Hence made me looked for part-time jobs, and yes, i ended up with Lily's job recommendation at Tiny Tots.

Most of my friends were surprised when they knew that i'm a kindergarden teacher ( i still am =]] ) . Well, they know im not that kind of person who can bare with other ppl so damn easily -.-

Heya peeps, that job suits me quite well actually. These children like me lah.. haha.. i know how that sound but its true.. i can hardly believe it too.. >.<

As there were lots and lots of free time, i did ponder about some things in life.

I hope i can :
- end a faulty relationship that only caused pain
- learn to appreciate my darling may may more =)
- stop loathin at almost everyone, everything so easily even tho it is of a good reason

Easier said than done? You bet. But enough saying... time to DO.